ARIDITY IN SPIRITUAL ASCENT

 People who seek God-experience in their life, and get to a certain point in the spiritual life, they begin to experience a period of aridity and dryness sometime in the process.  The spiritual mystics who had previously tasted the presence of God, often in their moments of prayers, meditation, popular devotions,  go through such moment of the ‘absence’ of God, as if God has left them. This is not something bad. As long as one is sincerely seeking God and not ‘giving up’, dryness in seeking God is an indicator that you are being prepared to move into a higher stage of the spiritual life. That you are being passed on to the IS-ness of God, where your AM-ness gets integrated. You are being led "upstairs," to the ‘seven storied mountain’ top of your soul. That you are not simply relying on your lower senses. That you are nearing your search-end in seeking him no matter what you feel or don't feel. The reason we don't feel his presence isn't because he has "left" us. Instead, he's drawing closer and we are blurred from the brightness of his presence. Therefore, we continue seeking him, regardless of the dry feelings. You show that your desire him for who he is, not just how you feel.

 St. John of the Cross, a great mystic and saint of the 16th century wrote, "God values in you the inclination to dryness and suffering for love of him more than all the consolations, spiritual visions, and meditations you could possibly have." A time he felt God was not a good friend, that he had abandoned him, “locked into a small room and was starved and tortured by his own brothers when he sought to reform the Carmelite order”. In that darkness, he felt rejected, and wondered if God was by his side. Here is the wisdom from him, for those who desire to possess the spiritual treasure: desire nothing in order to gain everything - the way of “nada.” Then you would no longer experience want or the dryness. You would have within you all you needed. From this we learn that God-seeking is the goal of “letting go,” by putting all things in their own proper places, without the obsession to control, the anxiety to possess, and the insecurity of losing the same things. Through ‘neti-neti’ – not this, not that – attitude, one is free to enjoy God. 

 Physically helping others through social charity, makes one find God in the people they serve.  It can be certain agnosticism. Ours is a living God, practical, existential, and incarnate than mere intellectual. This in turn leads to a deeper, spiritual realities. God and faith are not feelings. One who lives in selfless service, experiences the presence of the Absolute. Doubt and skepticism (e.g. St. Thomas) are real honest things to do, in order to know the truth. Even in the arid moments of ‘passing atheism’ God can be real. Faith does not make truth certain, instead one believes with uncertain feeling and intellect that God exists. Consequently, moments of unbelief, of dark nights of the soul, God’s silence, indifferent and lonely periods, and skeptical times will be there. One may experience God’s absence from one’s life.  Only goodness shown towards self and others, can carry us on when faith seems burdensome. Only a sustained generous living can lead to have faith in the Absolute, about whom we can never be totally certain.

The aridity could be also a sign of a shifting of one’s centre of spiritual identity, wherein, one moves from the centre of self-reference - the place of feeling good within a limited space -   towards a more universal pluri-focal centre, beyond boundaries. Here, one recognizes not only those seeking God of one’s own belief system (religion), but also all those seeking the Universal God of the whole human species beyond the lines of control. The shift is to the cosmotheandric, universe, God and human species. In the midst of aridity, the Reality-seeking efforts expand. One may still experience the dryness in the midst of diversity and complexity, but becomes more aware of a deep, underlying connection, that is more experienced, sensed, than explained. This discovery of God as Being (IS-ing) becomes “everybody’s secret” (Upanishads). It includes all living and non-living organisms, with which one strives to live. This new faith conviction of mutual reliance emanates positive energy of love, respect and compassion, an energy that becomes an all-inclusive spirituality, elevating to a higher self. This divine power-centre (energy) is everywhere. It is all in all.  The part is in the whole and whole is in each part. It is through moments of aridity, analysis, scepticism, and questioning that one reaches a deeper spiritual reality. 

Thomas Merton, in a book called Seeds of Contemplation says that the whole of creation is an incarnation of an idea in the mind of God. It is within this creation, that we “live, move, and have our being, out of the fullness we all have received.”  This way we have an experience of the Kingdom, where “with the whole of creation, free from the corruption of death”, we give glorify to the Creator (4^th Eucharistic prayer). The non-organisms too are Spirit having material experiences. “We are all spiritual beings first, having material body” (Teihard de Chardin). Therefore, spiritual aridity is a step ahead to experience and feel this God, as a presence. Later on, this God became IS-ness, Being. If so, one’s AM-ness is the real thing and that's where one is with God. God’s AM-ness, His IS-ness, is shared with everything. In fact, many mystics have some time passed from Jesus to God through the ‘dark cloud of the unknowing’ and the ‘dark night of the soul’. They passed on to the presence or the existence of the non-dual advaitic God.